Rachel's blog

2009-06-09T02:06:00.001-07:00

i have been away for quite awhile

and

will be gone for awhile more.

but i will be back.

and till then, you know i will love u!

so be back alrights!

hugs and kisses,

rachel.

muacks

2009-05-16T20:36:00.000-07:00

its not supposed to feel this way
i need you
i need YOU
more and more each day.

love is a canvas painted by god

and

embroided with our imaginations

this is the EMPTY YOUR POCKET AND HAND ME ALL YOUR MONEY tiles

what do we have there?

the mouse - thats yi tai

own flower - thats the second tai

yi se - thats four tai

consecqutive yi se - thats eight tai already (in the rule we set when playing mj)

and lastly it was a zi mo - thats like a crazy nine tai.

lols.

its okay if u have no idea what im talking about, just know that its an insanely wonderful set of tiles.

it has been such a long time since we sat around the green table, racking heads

the feeling's still so fab after such a long while

majong has always been one of the best ways to catch up with old friends (:

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Dont wana hurt anymore
i thought this song spoke everything i felt each time i hated everything about our rs.

each time we did all the things a couple shouldnt do.

now i truly wonder if all these wrong made a right

or did they simply worsen the wrong.

but i tell myself.

i'd be stupid for him

becuase

a love so vulnerable

yet deeply cherished

is truly hard to come by

Looking so innocent

I might believe if I didnt know

Could've loved you all my life

if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got to share your secrets

And I am tired of being the last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

we still have so much to do.

its really too early to say goodbye.

2009-03-31T07:18:00.000-07:00

school's started.
after such an extremely long holiday.

it feels weird having daily obligations again.

i cant believe i am already complaining when the worst has yet to come.

haha

sometimes only after living a good eighteen years that u realise life has been so wasted.

and it just makes u feel so lousy.

but then again.

not that i have, at any point of time, felt that i lead a damn fulfilling life.

its just that. when u look around u and see so many things not going the way u planned.

u feel like breaking down.

girls.

we all have pretty dreams dont we?

church weddings. lovely white gowns. holding a banquet in some posh hotel. successful career. full collection of fendi prada gucci miu miu chanel hermes lv bags shoes clothes .

all these being only the start of our dreams.
then we wish that the charming guy whom is now our husband will devote his entire life to provide for the comfort of our lives.

have children.

watch them have children.

and the list goes on.

but exactly how many can really live this dream.

we dont know.

and we dont care.

we just hold on to our dreams hoping that somehow, someday what we wished for as a little girl beside the wishing pond, will come true.

until, perhaps, one day, the truth becomes too much for us to take.

we begin crying
after all the tears, we look back.

and realise that we have long foreseen the ugly truth of life

we were all merely wishing for a miracle which failed to do us proud.

xoxo.

2009-03-29T22:05:00.000-07:00

I DONT LIKE THE BACKSEAT, I HAVE TO BE FIRST

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door

Guess this means you take back

All you said before

Like how much you wanted

Anyone but me

Said you'd never come back

But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now,yeah

Forever united here somehow,

You got a piece of me

And honestly,

My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight

I know that I've got issues

But YOU'RE pretty messed up too

Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah

Forever united here somehow,yeah

You got a piece of me

And honestly, My life would suck without you

MJ TONIGHT = MUST WIN MUST WIN MUST WIN!

lols.

haha.

xoxo

2009-03-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

CONFESSSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC!

a bimbo, chick movie, girls totally love!!!

they should seriously come out more of such movies.

i swear i will watch every single one of it.

2009-03-24T19:33:00.000-07:00

I AM STILL IN THE MIDST OF CLEARING OLD PHOTOS.

YES, ITS AN INSANELY HUGE AMOUNT OF PHOTOS.

hello. camwhore here.

HAHA

SO HERE ARE SOME EFFING RANDOM AND OVERDUED PICS.

ONE OF THE REALLY THOUGHTFUL GIFTS BABY PREPARED FOR ME ON OUR ONE YEAR ANI! (: (which is 2 months back LOLS)

BABY HATES WRITING.

SO WHEN HE WRITES FOR U.

U KNOW HE LOVES U.

THANKS BABY.
REMEMBER TO PATRONIZE THE FRUIT OF BABY'S HARDWORK OKAYYYYYYYYYYY! (:

ITS GONA BE OPEN SOONN!!!

2009-03-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

he's my type

i love his height

he's my fan

he's just right

he's like, “I think we can go far”,

I'm like, “you'r right”

i thought this sounded really cool when i heard it over the radio.

haha.

ON A VERY RANDOM NOTE, I THINK FIFI IS THE MOST ADORABLE DOG AROUND.

was clearing some old pictures in my computer and look what i found!

haha. an out-dated video taken donkey years ago for a project which i thought i have long deleted!

its an NG scene so its really short and retarded. LOLS.

anw. i think i look more like the mother in the video. haha.

2009-03-22T18:00:00.000-07:00

BLAME IT ON MYSELF.

NOW MY SIM CARD IS BURNT.

AND I HAVE TO GO TO PARAGON TO HAVE IT FIXED.

(bangs wall!!!!!)

2009-03-20T05:08:00.000-07:00

today was shopping with dearest evan; gigi! =)

it has been such a longggggggggggggg time baby!

i totally miss those days we shopped like tai tai(s). erhem erhem.HAHA

and i am so glad we did it again today (:

each time we meet. i will thank god we did

you are totally a distinction friend
too bad. ___________

(thats only meant for you and me to know right. dearie? (: )

xoxo.

nonetheless.

you'll always be my honey

and i'll always be your baby.

because we are so meant to be, yet so meant (not) to be best friends.

haha
they call it, life's imperfections. (:

ANYWAY, results are back.

like finally.

i wont say i am satisfied.

because O-B-V-I-O-U-S-L-Y my results arent fantastic.

neither are they anywhere near good.

the best i would say of it is just. acceptable.

LOLS.

but okay larh.

at least now i can concentrate on mj-ing

instead of being preoccupied with RESULTS and making generous donations to people who are far richer than me.

(URGHHHHHHHHHH!)

haha.

yesterday in the car i told baby

' aye hurry leh. going 8 already. we meeting them at 8 for mj '

and he calmly replied

' why are u in such a hurry to kiss your mana goodbye '

his foul words.

every single one came true.

nevermind. i shall try harder next time.

haha.

a never dying gambler's spirit.

LOLS.

goodness me.

i ought to do some soul-searching.

haha.

& i am (hoping wishing praying) some (super uber very) kind soul would make (extremely) significant contributions to my thailand trip

no larh.
nothing's confirmed.

but i am planning for another trip some time soon.

I DESPERATELY NEED TO REVAMP MY WADROBE

and thailand has everything i need.

so if my parents will be the kind souls.

then farewell singapore.

haha.

i cant afford ALL the clothes i love here

but over there,

i m QUEEN.

love love!

2009-03-18T20:02:00.000-07:00

DEAR LORD

please bless me, together with all my other dearies.

bless that we make it.

bless that every bit of our hardwork paid off.

2009-03-03T17:27:00.000-08:00

time feels like it is so much more well-spent on the majong table

ever since baby's back.

its morning for us when the clock strikes twelve midnight.

thats when all the majong crazy people reunite

and the battle for money begin!!

EERRR. haha.

since i cant get a holiday job. mj is the one and only way i can generate income.

and really. when we say majong crazy. we really mean majong CRAZY.

as in the hardcore sense.

just a call. just an sms.

thats all it takes to put us together for another night-long mj session.

it is the general rule of thumb for the big winner of the night to treat supper
AND, guess what.

i have NEVER treated supper before.

so i guess i wont be wrong if i said lady luck left my name out on her visiting list.

SIN, SIN AND SIN

SUPPER MJ SUPPER MJ SUPPER MJ.

goodness.

haha.

AND WE'R HAVING ANOTHER ROUND OF MJ TOMORROW AT EIGHT. =D

BABY AND I HAD SOME SINGING SESSION YESTERDAY AT DOWNTOWN EAST.

I WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT I COULD SOUND SO SUCKY IN SINGING.

I ALWAYS THOUGHT IT WAS MY FORTE

ERHEM

HAHA

I WILL BE UPLOADING BABY'S SINGING VIDEOS SOON!

SO BE BACK AGAIN SOON! =D

LOVE LOVE.

XOXO

2009-02-24T19:33:00.000-08:00

lets crumple up that checklist and throw it away.

becuase i believe love conquers all.

baby, i miss you (x100times)

everything just doesnt feel right without you around.

2009-02-24T06:25:00.000-08:00

EXAMS. LATE NIGHTS. STUDYING. FEVER. EYEBAGS.

but a camwhore's still a camwhore.

haha!

even if it means sacrifacing studying time.

LOLS

will do a proper update soon.

baby, imiss you.

come back soon, will you?

xoxo.

rachel

and! to the person who asked

'why does your blog only consist of you and your boyfriend and nobody else'

the reason .

this blog was set up with the intention of keeping records of our love.

so even if one day, every other thing fails.

i still have beautiful memories of our commedable love.

ps : thank you for your concern too. lovelove. (:

2009-02-17T22:38:00.000-08:00

i hope u will like this.

because i LOVED it (:

2009-02-16T06:44:00.000-08:00

if a man could be at two places at one time

i will be with you

do u still remember saying this?

(now i really wish that could come true)

YOU CAN HAVE EVERYTHING MONEY CAN BUY

BUT ARE U REALLY HAPPY?

i guess baby's not alone in his desires if i told u his desire is to be financially independant at the age of 21 and be able to afford a bmw 7 series convertible at the age of 25

now baby's working hard towards loading himself with new phones, shoes, plasma, car, clothes and every other thing.

nothing wrong with that

in fact, it is good to have a dream

even better when u make it a point to work towards it

but ever thought of the things that has to be given up in return for that

DREAM COME TRUE

nobody ever said it was easy to realise a dream

becuase everybody knows the price to pay.

thats why we call it a dream

and not a want

as i witness baby kickstart his dream

taking it one step at a time

its happiness i ought to be feeling

but if i told u this happiness is coupled with sadness

would you get my point?

now even the simplest wish of walking on the street

hand in hand

doing nothing

just enjoying each other's company

feels like something so unattainable.

watching other girls enjoying the simplest kind of romance

i wont deny, im jealous

im just a simple girl

and if u ever ask me what i want

i would say

just a boyfriend who can be there for me when i need him

just a shoulder i can rest on when im worn out

just a listening ear that will listen to all i gota say

just a pair of hands that will hold me tight when the stars all go blind

its really that simple.

baby's leaving for an overseas business trip this sunday.

and i am finshing my exams next week.

i cant see him off at the airport.

neither can we celebrate the end of my exams.

baby has been really busy lately

busy with all the legal proceedings

busy with everything

he hardly have any time for himself

needless to say, me as well.

it has been like that before our trip

and will continue to be so for the many days ahead.

but because, he's my baby

i guess the wisest thing to do would be to wish him well and be supportive of him

oh well.

ANYWAY, ON A HAPPIER NOTE

thank you mr.ng for being the nicest soul again

isit my fortune to have chanced upon u

or isit your misfortune to have befriended me

haha

we made so many mistakes previously

mistaken friendship for love

wrote a drama

i was never the good one in our stories

but u always tried your best to paint the best picture of me despite the bitch i have been

and for that, thank u.

u are those really nice chap who will give it all for love

and treats friends with sincerity

though everything that ever existed between us ended on quite a harsh note

i am glad you never once blamed me for anything

and i am thankful,

im still your friend.

because, u will always, be my most loved friend. (:

2009-02-13T06:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

I HOPE U ALREADY GOTTEN YOURSELF KILLER DRESSES FOR THE BIG DAY,TOMORROW!

for all lovers, tomorrow must certainly mean a lot to you.

because its the time of the year, u wana express those heartfelt thanks to the other half for being angels.

you splurge on roses, despite the prices.

you design handmade cards even though you failed art in secondary school

you arrange for candle-lit dinner even if it means your whole week's allowance.

u will do anything just to please her.

because guys just know how much valentine's day mean to girls

our initial plan of heading to the white rabbit for a supposedly romantic dinner gave way to the idea of another 3 days spent out of town

(AND I HAVEN EVEN CALLED TO CANCEL OUR RESERVATION!!!

OKAY, SO IF U HAPPEN TO BE DESPERATELY LOOKING FOR A RESTUARANT DECENT ENOUGH TO IMPRESS YOUR SWEETIE. TRY WHITE RABBIT. 7 O CLOCK RESERVATION. UNDER MY NAME. $128 PER PERSON. 5 COURSE DINNER *INCLUSIVE OF RED WINE*)

alrights

back to topic.

haha.

its just human's nature.

we just enjoy the feeling of spending time in a foreign island with our honey, dont we?

AND tomorrow would officially be the first time i am celebrating valentines day with baby.

lets just hope all turns well and tomorrow will be a day worth remembering for life.

AND OF COURSE, i have not blogged much about our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY last friday.

as promised.

baby brought me to the OASIS

had dinner.. and oh dear.

those gifts.

i would have never thought baby would be so sweet

but i am glad he proved me wrong on a day so dear.

now u ask

ok what is it.

i shall fill u in next time!

(read, i am lazy to upload the pics of the gifts larhhhh!!!) haha

but just note that, he was SICKENINGLY SWEET.

i swear i am smiling as im typing this. =D

anyway. its kinda late now.

and i ought to hit the sacks

i dont wana be looking like china's assets (read, panda) tomorrow.

WILL BLOG ABOUT TRIP UPON RETURN!

SO, STAY TUNED! =D

2009-02-08T05:15:00.000-08:00

i know half the world has alreadyforgot i have a blog. -.-

nothing unusual at the rate im blogging

haha.

so you should be one of the very very very few if u are reading this.

LOLS

this is like some abandoned place.

i just felt that i had to blog

because its OUR ONE YEAR!

YEAR YEAR YEARRRRRRRRRR!

YOYOYO!

ITS YEAR OK!

see our love's soooooooooooooo strong

LOLS

and on valentines.

NO MORE DINNER TREAT

ITS OVERSEAS TREAT AGAIN!

HOORAY!

WE ROCK.

TOTALLY

HAHA

and then that would be the SIXTH time i am leaving singapore with baby! =D

am i blessed or wad.

haha

anw. pics will be uploaded in next entry

im sooo lazy to even think properly now.

im writing singlish

which is a complete letdown to my previous poem like entries (like klara said)

lols.

haha. ok. anything.

bye bye!

i love myself and myself and myself!

and baby (((::: muacks!

eeks. i hate this entry, its soo ewwww.

disgusting.

2009-01-24T20:34:00.000-08:00

IM PREPARING FOR REUNION DINNER !

YEA!

i know i was just complaining how mundane and irritating cny is just yesterday.

BUT, i suddenly feel UBER HAPPY. LOLS.

(READ, WOMAN'S NATURE)

i want to wear pretty clothes! =D

looking at those dainty dresses, eye candy tops

and my beautifully painted nails.

i cant help but smile =D

its only past twelve. and dinner's at five.

BUT WHO CARES.

i make the rules.

and i say WE DRESS UP NOW.

AND MY SISTER'S GG TO BE PREETTTTYYY TOO.

she's gona drop those berms which are just such a yesterday thing.

my sister can look so lovely in a dress (:

muacks muacks.

i know i said picture blogging in the next entry but this aint exactly an entry its just a crazy, enthusiastic shout out to all out there that

YOU ARE HAPPY ONLY WHEN U CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY.

so make your right choice and brighten up the mood at the dining table.

your family will love u for that.

MUACKKKSS!

baby baby baby! you can finally savour his twin abalone too! =D YAY!

WE LOVE CHINESE NEW YEAR, DONT WE?

(THINK RED PACKETS, PRETTY CLOTHES, OVERNIGHT MJ, NON-STOP POKER, GOOD FOOD, NO SCHOOL)

and you will reply.

oh yes we do. (:

2009-01-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

GONG XI GONG XI! HAHA

thats an early new year greeting to u!

but what is new year without anticipation, without excitement, without joy.

seriously, i dont even feel a tinge of excitement this year.

despite the fact that i had already gotten all those lovely tops in the name of new year.

it just feel weird.

even reunion dinner tomorrow seems like just another one of those better dinners.

haha. perhaps. chinese new year is just a kid's thing. and so as we mature, we begin looking at it with a different eye

ALRIGHTY. but i have a major accomplishment here. i already chosen and BOOKED a restaurant for valentines (: *big wide grin* haha.

shall tell you more about it after valentines.

i wanted to make something so magnificant on valentines for baby. not exactly make, but plan something so sweet, it will bring him to tears

BUT APPARENTLY, its the chinese saying of 'the heart wanting to do it, but not being able to actually DO IT due to other factors' blah blah blah. im like spouting nonsense. i dont exactly remember the proverb so pardon my disgusting translation.

i hope u got my point though.

this coming feb is going to such an awfully sweet bliss because not only is there going to be valentines. our FIRST YEAR ANNINVERSAY is also going to fall on the magical 6TH OF FEB 09.

YAY!

and baby already thought of a beautiful way to celebrate it! =D

here's the plan

revisit the bridge, and dine at the restuarant near the bridge. (i forgot the name of the place)

each of us are suppose to list out 5 memories both bad and good that are most memorable during the past year of our togetherness. (read happiness and love)

like so sweet can.

baby is RARELY so sweet. haha.

so it really made my day when he told me about it.

when i thought it would just be another one of those nice dinners in a good restaurant.

but really, baby, it feels so great knowing we've been together for such a long time to come.

all this time, u taught me the ways of love.

you taught me to be independant

you taught me the realities in life

you changed me, entirely.

even people i used to know, knows i changed.

from that little girl. i've matured.

i've seen so much more in life.

experienced so much more.

whether or not we make it till the end

whether or not thirty years from now u'r still my honey

our love is commendable

because, you are the first guy i wish plucking the stars from the sky down for.

you'r the first guy that can bring me to tears so easily.

you may not be the sweetest guy

but u are definately my distinction boyfriend.

you may not be the most charming guy

but u are no doubt the apple of my eye

muacks muacks muacks! =D

AHH! another lengthy post.

baby is going to comment that my blog is the most boring blog ever AGAIN

but do be here again for the new year pictures ok?

i'll let pictures do the talking next time.

PROMISE PROMISE (:

2009-01-21T05:24:00.000-08:00

so that gesture wasnt enough.

you read beyond my intended meaning.

i meant to wish u well, i meant to tell u if you ever need a friend

'i'll be there'

but you read every line, every word with eyes filled with such suspicion.

honestly, it did hurt me.

because, though the distance, your stinging reply left its mark.

because lovers cant always make it to the finishing line, because friends are those who will stick with you through thick and thin.

because, i knew, i treated you more like a brother, more like a best friend

i chose, what i chose.

but YOU chose to give up on everything.

didnt u once promise me that u will always be someone i can pour my sorrows to and someone i can share my joy with?

i dont have many true friends left, perhaps i didnt have many to begin with

but YOU, that one person i would definately call my best friend, brushed me off with such disregard of our past.

what more can i say?

nothing.

i know you'll be reading this. if u think this is hypocrisy, then so be it.

but at the end of it all

i just want to say

happy birthday

i used to be your friend, remember?

8102_ _ _ _

i swear. you will not see this number in your inbox anymore.

that was the last bit i wanted to do for someone whom i use to think of as a brother.

but u told me a little too harshly that it was

too little, too late.

god bless u.

for those memories, i will be keeping them all in a silver frame.

thank you.

2009-01-18T05:35:00.000-08:00

when i am with you, i'll make every second count

cus i miss you whenever you'r not around.

honey

wont you tell me you miss me too?

played mj for 3 hours last night losing only SEVENTY CENTS.

-.-

while baby won a pathetic THIRTY CENTS

aye, its seriously sad okay.

its like 3 hours seating there. staring at green tiles. wasting brain cells

at least make it productive right! haha

but nvm, i am glad its seventy CENT i lost instead of DOLLARS

because if thats really the case i wont be ranting now.

i would be screaming yelling jumping up and down like some insame chicken.

i have got dss to complete. and then maec to study.

i hate to say this

but

LIFE SUCKS

when all are talking about what to do with all the free time they are going to have after graduation

i am sweating here thinking how i should pass my modules.

quit those talks about being bored after graduation, quit saying you are going to miss studying.

because honestly, YOU WONT.

-.-

i would glady exchange my seriously pathetic life for life without school without exams without studying, ANYTIME.

ok larh. i sound so murderous.

haha.

ok, its time to study AGAIN.

like really, AGAIN.

its always STUDY STUDY STUDY.

how awesome would it be if life's a play

and i could do away with the part on studying

xoxo.

2009-01-13T05:00:00.000-08:00

FOR A MOMENT LIKE THIS, SOME PEOPLE WAIT A LIFETIME

baby, i think it is only fair that i let you know what you should know

'I CANT LIVE IF LIVING MEANS WITHOUT YOU'

honey, i believe in hero's i belive in the cinderella story and i believe in happy endings when i look into your eyes.

lord knows, how sincere i am when i say I LOVE U and how much i mean when i say i want to spend every tomorrow with you.

BABY, THANK YOU.

2008-12-28T04:39:00.000-08:00

JUST SO YOU KNOW, I AM STILL ALIVE.

haha.

lets see, when was the last time i update?

A MONTH AGO.

goodness.

i think you almost forgot i had a blog.

like seriously

my blog's like some god forsaken place.

haha.

there was christmas, and then new year. and of course, how can we forget the coming valentines

which so happens to fall during my major exam period.

now you should understand why i HATE NP.

bangs wall.

i swear, its the worst decision ever made.

i must have lost my brain or something when i thought NP would be some nice place i would love calling my 2nd home

(as they always say, schools are 2nd homes)

but of course thats just one of the infinite reasons why NP is definately on my hate list

haha.

christmas eve was so splendid, spent with the company of beautiful angels.

and then the crazy countdown to christmas at the lift lobby.

er, ya. lift lobby

like -.-

haha. BUT HEY, ITS NOT WHERE YOU ARE, BUT WHO U ARE WITH that makes things beautiful OKAY! haha.

and how can i forget the yummylicious christmas delights

(credits to dad and baby)

the MEN of my life. (:

friends, family, good food, overnight majong session, crazy countdown, stupid lame games, and of course, my dearest fifi (:

and that was all it took to make christmas feel so blessed.

ok. I HEARD YOUR QUESTION.

FIFI? who's FIFI?

please allow me to do some formal introduction.

DRUMS ROLLLLLL

*
*

FIFI'S MY NEW LOVE! (:

ITS THE CUTEST THING AROUND. I DONT THINK I EVER SAW ANYTHING THIS LOVEABLE FOR THE PAST SEVENTEEN YEARS OF MY LIFE. ITS EITHER MY LIFE IS DAMN PATHETIC, OR ITS JUST THAT THIS LITTLE CUTIE PIE IS JUST TOO AWESOME TO BE TRUE.

and i choose to believe its the latter.

fifi just gives me one more reason to miss home.

i love him fifi! (:

and of course, i have another equally important overdued annoucement to make!

I DYED MY HAIR.

its my maiden hair dye ok!

haah

anyway, i suppose 2009 would be be a blessed year for me with so many lovely well wishes from so many wonderful people. (:

and allow me to extend my most heartfelt thanks to all those kind and beautiful souls who remembered to sms me when the clock striked TWELVE, instead of oogling at the splendid night scene. that was really much appreciated. (: i guess,its always nice to know you're remembered.

and many apologies, for d late replies since i think something went wrong and all my smses just didnt reach you lovlies.

bangs wall

but anyway, if u are reading this. u know i wished u a good year ahead.

family, love, health, career, studies

let them all be as u desire.

i know this is like hell late.

BUT BETTER LATE THEN NEVER RIGHT! (:

anyway, i gota bury my head in books again!

but i promise, i will be back soon (:

ilu (:

2008-12-13T23:05:00.000-08:00

BEHOLD

CHRISTMAS IS HERE!

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SEASON OF THE YEAR.

THE SEASON WHICH ENGAGES THE WHOLE WORLD IN A CONSPIRACY OF LOVE.

THE ONLY TIME OF THE YEAR WHEN LOVE WILL WEIGH MORE THAN GOLD.

MY CHRISTMAS WISHLIST.

#1. I WISH FOR MY FAMILY TO ALWAYS BE IN THE PINK OF HEALTH AND BE ALL SMILES AT THE BREAKING OF EVERY DAWN

#2. I WISH FOR MY BOYFRIEND TO BE BLESSED WITH JOY, HEALTH, LUCK FOR THIS ENTIRE LIFETIME

#3. I WISH FOR A LOVE SO TRUE.

#4. I WISH FOR GREAT ACADEMIC RESULTS

#5. I WISH FOR A MILLION DOLLARS

#6. I WISH FOR ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL.

AND TWILIGHT IS SO OVERATED.

OK, I KNOW YOU WANT TO BASH ME.

BUT THE MOVIE DIDN MAKE ME GO

'GOD, WAS THE DIRECTOR LORD?'

er huh. u got what i mean.

HAHA. AND THEY HAD NO SUBTITLES.

I SWEAR, I LAUGHED FOR A GOOD FIFTEEN MINUTES BECAUSE THE GUY TWO SEATS AWAY FROM ME STARED AT THE SCREEN WITH DISMAY.

HAHA!

he is from china, you see.

2008-12-07T22:34:00.000-08:00

SATURDAY

it was international dinner buffet at novena

to curb the hunger of signiorPK.

" One cannot think well, love well, sleep well, if one has not dined well. "

lobster.abalone.fish.prawns.crab.sushi.wine.liquor.beef.squid.abalone.sharks fin.oyster.western cuisine.chinese cuisine.cholocate coated mashmallow.cheese cakes.pasta

your pick, baby.

a dinner worthed every penny spent, we all agreed.

SUNDAY

it was chilling out with baby and jy and his friends at dempsey hill.

MY MOST SINCERE APOLOGIES TO:

MR MANDL.

this is for you.

u rock. (:

and if i can only use one word to describe u,

gentleman it would be

i have never seen a guy more gentleman than u.

and, im dead serious.

please take that as a compliment and feel very honoured.

haha

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

remember to invite me again next year!

i swear upon god, I WILL PERSONALLY HAND U UR PRESENT!

JOEY DARLING

i am very sorry i did not turn up in the end.

but we will meet up again very soon alrights?

anw here's to u babe

a very happy happpy birthday to u.

we may no longer be as close as we use to be.

but occasionally thinking of how we used to share such an awesome friendship really makes my day.

whatever it is, wherever i am.

u noe, i am always only an sms away.

2008-11-30T07:14:00.000-08:00

WHEN SURPRISES

BECOMES OBLIGATIONS.

what more can i say?

i have not been a good girlfriend

even by the most generous standards.

i dont know where to start.

neither would i know how to end.

i just live by this prayer.

' u and i will make it through '

i dont wana feel the way that i do

i just wana be right here with u

i dont wana see, see us apart

i just wana say it straight from my heart

i love u.

no conditions attached

this love is already multiplied

' in other words, hold my hand

in other words, darling kiss me

in other words, please be true

in other words i love u '

2008-11-29T03:58:00.000-08:00

SOMETIMES ITS NOT THE BIG THINGS,

BUT THE LITTLE THINGS U DO THAT MAKES LOVING YOU SO MUCH MORE WORTHED WHILE.

2008-11-24T17:39:00.000-08:00

我的车上会有你的特别座

我的肩膀是你专属的枕头

你说西或往东听你的没错

我家里所有是你的杰作

虽然你常念很久

还把过去拿来说

那是因为你爱找

我懂

有时你会气很久

狠心不跟我联络

也是因为你爱我

我懂

因为你我愿意说

　Oh Babe

只牵你的手

就算世界有尽头

seriously. i think this song has the effect of bringing one to tears

i swear any guy who dedicates this song to his love has already won half the battle.

2008-11-23T06:15:00.000-08:00

visted botanic garden for picinc.

HAHA

baby and i were constantly looking out for any weird stares since we were one of the very few who went there for picnic.

but, it was such a love spending a lazy afternoon with my boy doing nothing but simply enjoying each other's company.

AND CHRISTMAS IS ROUND THE CORNER

HAVE U GOT ANY CHRISTMAS PLANS YET?!!

i certainly hope u do.

because, i dont.

LOLS

haha

i gather this year's christmas will be relatively boring

marilyn is out of town. happily in new york.

jaramiah, that big asshole has goten himself a ticket. awaiting for the 21.12 and off he goes to join marilyn.

man, how could he ever let marilyn spend a lonely christmas. haha

church function at orchard hotel? eeyer. all the old aunty, uncle. no way man.

zoe's pre christmas celebrations? no. i would feel damn weird there.

and mandl just text me for a christmas eve party. but i guess, i would be skipping that too.

i guess. the best would be like what baby suggested.

GET OUT OF HERE.

anywhere, but singapore for a white snowy christmas this gorgeous season.

haha.

2008-11-15T07:17:00.001-08:00

IF SOMEONE SAID YOU WILL BE GONE A FEW YEARS FROM NOW

I WILL STAND UP AND PUNCH HIM/HER DOWN

DATED : FRIDAY , 14 SEPTEMBER 2008.

OUR NINTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

applaud please (: haha

proper post + anniversary video in next entry.

SO pop by again soon alrights?

hugs&kisses, rachel.

" If the road ahead is not so easy,

Our love will lead the way for us

I'll be there for you if you should need me

You don't have to change a thing

I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share the view

I'll help you see forever too "

i hereby annouce that GAY RACHEL

will always be with ERIC CHEONG in times of joy and sorrow,

love him unconditionally,

never leave him,

and do whatever it takes to make this love right.

.because he deserves the best, only the best.

2008-11-13T00:42:00.000-08:00

BACK TO MY BED.

PATIENTS NEED AMPLE REST.

2008-11-11T03:19:00.001-08:00

CONGRATULATIONS BABY BOY FOR COMING UP FIRST ACROSS THE LEVEL IN RUNNING FOR TODAY'S NAFA!!!!

THATS MY BOY :D

2008-11-09T01:04:00.000-08:00

ITS PICTURE BLOGGING TODAY!

enough with paragraphs and paragraphs of words.

let these pictures tell the story

BUT FIRST UP.

AT RACHEL'S LOST AND FOUND COUNTER.

WE HAVE

HAHA. careless ass. HOW CAN U ACTUALLY LEAVE THIS BEHIND, IN MY HANDS?

short introduction before story telling begins.

on 07/11/2008

two lovers made their way to the club suite at THE ZON, also referred to as the lover's nest, for a short getaway.

introducing to you

RACHEL&ERIC'S THIRD GETAWAY.

yes, its just a mere 2D1N trip. but it was such a pleasantly sweet one.

it always feels great being away with baby.

for now, i gota start on my BLAW which is such a killer.

no, i wasnt referring to the module.

i was in fact, directing it at the teacher.

AND OH YARH. BEFORE I END.

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO SENT IN EMAILS ENQUIRING ABOUT THE TOP.

MY DEEPEST APOLOGIES FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO REPLY YOU AS I WAS OUT OF TOWN

BUT, JUST TO LET ALL OF YOU KNOW, THE TOP IS ALREADY SOLD. (:

once again, thank u!

CUPID KNOWS ME BY NAME.

AND I OWE HIM ONE FOR DOING ME SUCH A GREAT FAVOUR

BABY, YOU GOT ME HYPNOTISED

2008-11-06T16:44:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERY BIRDIE! x)

did any BIRDIE miss me? or miss chirping on my tagboard?

'gleams happily, awaiting for a positive reply (: '

statistics have shown that white lies should be told every now and then.

BECAUSE, mankind DO prefer hearing subtle distortions of the truth rather than cold hard facts.

HAHA

ok, lets get down to business first.

haha. OBVIOUSLY I DIDN MAKE MY BEBE TOP A MODEL FOR FUN!

so u ask, why did i post them up?

BECUASE, I WANT TO MAKE HER YOURS!!!

yes, u heard me right.

BRING HOME MY 200%AUTHENTIC BEBE TOP TODAYY.

i am selling it away now because, MY MUM FREAKING BOUGHT THE WRONG SIZE.

and its too large for me ):

as shown above, its a M size.

i should wear S leh. i so slim leh! haha. whatever. -.-

its worn before. BUT IN PERFECT CONDITION.

PICTURES DONT LIE.

(: haha

PLUS PLUS PLUS! its 100% COTTON!

anyone interested please email me at mad_rachel@hotmail.com ok?

highest price gets in.

COMEON BABY, U KNOW U WANT IT.

OK, ABRUPT CHANGE OF TOPIC HERE.

* haha. many apologies for the sudden removal of my tagboard which of course is due to some REASONS. erhem erhem. haha.

only the PRIVILEGED FEW gets to know it.

SO, JARAMIAH. please feel honoured and stop nagging. haha

this shows that u are my HIGH RANKING friend leh!

wipe that cheeky smile off u face now! haha (:

ANYWAY! I WOULD BE OUT OF TOWN TOMORROW !

THIS IS OFFICIALLY THE THIRD TIME I WOULD BE SPENDING TIME WITH BABY IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY!

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND.

ok now baby you can say. "NOW U ARE A LUCKY WOMEN"

pictures taken with correct lighting. (check)

pictures are clear. (check)

pictures with me smiling or at least u can detect happiness from the shots (check)

pictures with only my face (check)

YAY! I CAN BE A PROFESSIONAL PHOTOGRAPHER NOW!

haha

arent all of u just so impressed with my improvements?? haha x)

I SERIOUSLY LOVE MYSELF AND EVERYONE WHO LOVES ME

baby, i say we have both given up a fair bit of our previous life for this love.

all those late night outs.all those chilling.frequently patronizing clubs like its your second home.attending all sorts of party, you name it.and making california your third home.

baby.
i know, how much u have sacrifaced.

baby, i am not blind.

sometimes, it makes me feel so bad. because, i am so aware i took away a huge part of your life.

what happened to my maturity?

somehow it got lost somewhere in this overwhelming love.

i dont seem to be able to let u continue with your past ways.

neither do i seem to able to fit into your previous life.

i am no party girl.

i cant hold my liquor.

i cant rock the dancefloors.

i cant smitten you with fabulous dance moves.

i cant play the DJ.

i can slip into those fanciful dresses.

wear killer heels.

hit zuok every night.

but i know, thats not me. on the very inside.

i can sing ' WHEN I GROW UP'

put tatoo everywhere

but i know, thats not the ME i aspire to be.

i wish i could be a little more compatible with your colourful history

i wish i could be a little less me.

i know, it all contradicts.

i know, its not making sense.

but i guess thats love.

the shakespearen love.

2008-11-03T07:59:00.000-08:00

TAGBOARD GONE FOR A MOMENT.

WILL BE BACK IN AWHILE

sorry, due to some reasons i had to remove my tagboard.

but it will be up again soon. (:

x0x0.

ilu, all of u.

2008-11-01T03:07:00.000-07:00

JUST FOR LAUGHS.

haha. here are some really funny pickup lines :D

take one home with you today.

we all know how very important it is to get into ur eye candy's good books.

AND, how THE POWER OF HUMOR can help u easily acheive that. :D

so watch the space below.

1) " Here's $100. Drink till i am good looking then come and talk to me "

2) " Crap. Something's wrong with my phone "

girl asks: " what? "

" your number's not in it "

3) " my magic watch tells me you dont have an underwear on. "

girl replies: " yes, i do have one on "

" DAMN! it must be 15minutes fast! "

HAHA. i hope that made u laughed (:

anw, HAPPY BELATED HALLOWEEN, world! ahah

fingerscrossed. everything goes smoothly. and i would be OUT OF TOWN next weekend with baby!

YES!

2008-10-28T02:27:00.000-07:00

before i start off. just something light here i found on the net.

TOP 15 THINGS GUYS SHOULD KNOW ABOUT GIRLS.

read on, if u are attached.im sure u would want ur gf to be impressed with u.

read on, if u are not attached. oh pls. come on. who doesnt want a honey.

1)DONT LIE, BECAUSE WE ALWAYS FIND OUT.

2)GIRLS ARE PRETTY, BUT YOURS IS THE PRETTIEST!

3)NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY, YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND IS A WHORE.

4)HUGS AND KISSES MUST BE GIVEN AT ALL TIMES.

5)BE SPONTANEOUS; DINNER AND MOVIES WONT ALWAYS CUT IT

6)WE DONT LIKE IT WHEN U ACT LIKE MR.BIG

7)DONT SAY YOU UNDERSTAND WHEN U DONT

8)WE ARE PRINCESSES.SO DONT BE STINGY, SPLURGE ON FANCIFUL DINNERS AND PAMPER US WITH GIFTS.BECAUSE, PRINCESSES ALWAYS DESERVES THE BEST

9)WE ARE BEAUTIFUL AT ALL TIMES

10)DONT COMPARE OUR BREASTS WITH PAMELA ANDERSON'S. HERS ARE FAKE.JUST REMEMBER THAT

11)WE ALWAYS THINK WE ARE FAT BUT IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO TELL US WE ARE NOT.

12)IF YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG, OR EVEN IF YOU DIDNT. JUST APOLOGIZE

13)EVEN IF U THINK IT IS COOL TO BURP, FART, OR EMIT STRANGE GASES FROM UR BODY, IT IS NOT.

14)IT IS GOOD TO BE SENSITIVE, ALL THE TIME

15)MOST IMPORTANTLY, WE ARE ALWAYS RIGHT.DONT FORGET IT.

MY NEW SOFA! (:

I could be your pillar

Let you lean against my wall defenses

but you moved so far away that I know I would never be an anchor for any of your weakness.

It is in ways like this,

that I come to understand

how you would always choose everything else over my love and my affection

All of this in the elevator,makes me think

"You are so hard to love."

All of this in the elevator,makes me wonder

"Am I so hard to love, too?"

daddy, i love u. you know?

hold me by the hand once more.

when we quit taking school buses to school

when we quit hugging our daddy and mummy every night

when we quit telling the folks all we learnt in school

when we quit attending sunday class

that is when, life changed.

that is when, they realised we have grown up.

that is when, they decided we no longer need them as much.

and that is when, they finally decide to give us that forbidden fruit we have always been craving for.

F-R-E-E-D-O-M

but my daddy and mummy, i miss you.

i miss how you doted on me last time.

i miss being your little girl

i, really do.

2008-10-27T00:04:00.000-07:00

please excuse me. ahah. i know i am such a ...

BUT, you see. you cant blame me entirely

its DEEPAVALI

its a HOLIDAY

and yet, i find myself within the four walls of my pathetically small room

hmph.

any kind souls? get me an air ticket and i am out of here. haha.

i have been searching for nice dining places on the net for the past half an hour,

but its no where near a successful attempt.

DAMN IT

because

shopping is no longer the trend

and good food is high on my list lately :D

" We Are so Assembled Here in the Presence of God and These Witnesses

To Celebrate the Joining of This Man and Woman in the Unity of Marriage.

There Are No Obligations on Earth More Sweet or Tender

Then Those You Are about to Assume.

There Are No Vows More Solemn Than Those You Are about to Make.

There Is No Human Institution More Sacred

Than That of the Home You Are about to Form.

It Should Be Entered into Reverently, Thoughtfully,And with Full Understanding of Its Sacred Nature."

THIS IS PART OF THE MARRIAGE VOW FATHER MIKE WILL BE READING DURING AGNES AND DAVID'S CHURCH WEDDING!!!!

CCCOOONNNNGGRRAAATTUUULLLAAATIIIOOONNNSSSS!!

muacks muacks.

now i should start calling u. MRS AGNES TEO :D

from this date, till forever. you can quit ur job and just enjoy the life of a TAI TAI!

that is the least u can expect as the wife of a pilot.

haha.

i foresee next year's chinese new year to be a fruitful one. HAHA!

may the good lord bless you both with eternal happiness.

'I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU IF YOU SHOULD EVER NEED ME'

i swear, i have never laid eyes on such a lovely wedding invitation card before.

im not sure about you

but it is really the FIRST TIME i received a wedding card that comes along with a CD with a video on their love story

and i swear, agnes and david are the most amazing couple around.

their story is indeed a case of a true beauty and her prince.

2008-10-26T03:36:00.001-07:00

YOU LEAVE ME BREATHLESS

YOU ARE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE

you must be sent from heaven to earth to save me

you are like an angel

and i only hope that i deserve what you give me.

YOU LEAVE ME BREATHLESS

I STILL CANT BELIEVE YOU ARE MINE

if we had babies

they will look like you

it will so beautiful if that came true

baby boy, have i told you lately i truly adore you?

2008-10-23T02:52:00.000-07:00

the pictures were deliberately placed in such awkward positions in the hope that u could give those BLACK BALLS an exercise. (:

yes, i heard u. i noe i am SO LAME.

ok, just pardon my lame-ness.

i am slowly losing all inspirations.

i swear, im landing my fingertips randomly on the keyboard.

haha.

i shant bore u further with another lengthy entry.

youve strained your BALLS enough for today. (:

so i shall be nice, which so happens to be my middle name. :D

aww. another one of the million 'is that a joke. am i supposed to laugh?' joke im cracking again.

BYE BYE! ilove you ALL.muacksmuacks

2008-10-17T06:57:00.000-07:00

Love is not about finding the right person

but

making a relationship right

It's not about how much you love each other in the beginning

but

how much love you have built in the end

baby

even if this happiness is not going to last forever,

i am still glad at least, we came this far.

and shared this much

there's nothin like a memory of the one u truly love.

HAPPY 8TH MONTHS BABY! (:

SPECIAL THANKS TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE

it is the thought that counts, and it is the fact that u remembered that made it so much more worthed-while.

for the messages u sent and for the presents that u specially went to get.

thank u. (:

. klara

. julitta

. jun jie

. wei jie

. mei qiao

. si hui

. mandl

. jaramiah

. evan

. rebecca

. sze chien

. aloysius

. yi mei

. kimberley

. rebecca

. jerome

. jian da

. joel

. augustine

. kelvin

. charmaine

. daniel

. fiona

. edmund

. crystal

. christine

. evangeline

. dorence

. monica

. angela

. francis

. jack mill

.zoe

. serene

. gregory

. joanne

. qing kai

. aron

.marilyn jiejie

.shawn

.sean

.baby eric.

A VERY BIG THANK U TO ALL OF U AGAIN.

2008-10-16T06:08:00.000-07:00

will be back to fill in the words later.

and get the rest of the pictures posted up. (:

and of cus, i'll make special dedications to different individuals for all the beautiful things u did for me on my birthday.

hugs&kisses.

2008-10-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

for the two candid shots above, credits to my sister -.-

school has been taking its toll on me

boy

i am complaining when the worst has yet to come. and when first week is supposed to be a love since there are no tutorials.

and then again i am reminded that the infuriating alarm sound will be breaking dawn for me at a horrifying six o clock.

when was the last time i woke at six?

when i was still wearing the white and green school uniform.

that will suggest how long it has been.

2008-10-12T23:22:00.000-07:00

dear mum

what can i say

u have been with me all along the way

when i first stepped into primary school

it was not easy to fare

but it became so much better

simply because u were there

it's you mummy, i find unique

with whom i share a bond that's Greek

and kinship that's especially dear

which have stood the test of life

for a great long seventeen years

my mentor and my biggest fan

who has guided me the best u can

lent me a patient ear

and also helped dry my tears

because u are my mother

the person dearest to me

as time flips the page

this love wont age

because u are my mother

the person who gave me life

as the clock does its job

i see that we're so alike in everyway

your sweet and selfless spirit

that deals with those come-what-mays

i tell u now, quite honestly

u've brightened up all my days

so thanks again to u, mummy

u are a dear

i move ahead because of u

to a future with hope, not fear

i love u.

and a very very happy birthday to u.

i dedicate the above poem to the one person that means the world to me

my mum

2008-10-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

today was truly those days u want to thank god for.

a get together with your sweethearts after what seemed like ten thousand years

sounds marvellous?

indeed, it WAS marvellous.

thank u for the dumbo cum eeyore lookalike elephant.
AND, of course, the so delicately done up photo album, although its ONE YEAR LATE.

ahem ahem

but its still very much appreciated. (;

thank you babies

iloveallofyou, BIG TIME.

2008-10-08T06:14:00.000-07:00

REPLIES

rachel-:P ; thank u so much (;

rachel- saw you ; haha. its a gift darling. :D

rachel-jaramiah ; YES? haha! WAHH SINCE WHEN U AND KELVIN BECOME SO NAGGY DE.aiyoyo. marilyn not ard then naughty le rite!!! :D

rachel-gal ; i have natural curl, my dear (;

rachel-hi ; i go to www.mysoju.com. this site has dramas from multiple countries, taiwan, korea, japan. etc etc. maybe u can check it out. :D hope its useful

rachel-janine ; heehehehe. i hope u are enjoying urself at camp nowww... i shall see u this friday! :D together with the other lovelies. i hope u saw my message tho. cus u have yet replied me. ahaa

rachel-passerby ; its so nice to know u like reading my entries. haha! i love reading them too!! MUAHAHA. okay, i will include the archive soon. (: continue reading alriighhtss?? haha!

rachel-wei jie ; YES MR WEI JIE. i will do 5 times correction. haha

rachel-hello ; haha. i do not usually do online shopping, so i am not sure of any good webs either. and, i am very sorry. i do not have an online shop too. haha. BUT, i am thinking of opening one. BE SURE TO visit when i do alrights?

rachel-gal ; i am so glad u enjoy reading my entries. thank u (:

rachel-evan ; thank u darling. u noe i really missed u pretties. when was the last time i went to church. omgg..i definately miss those bible camps. those times we giggled in sunday class.AND OH YARH!!!haha. eating their prayer sessions. can we purlissssss organise another bible camp sooonnn. haha. i will try to go back ok? and when i see u and gorand sis. i will hug u guys so tightly.

rachel-random person ; thank u. thats really very nice of u. tho i do not know who u are. but i am sure, u are definately someone created by the lovely hands of god. :D

*ALL TAGS WITH ILL INTENTIONS, AND HIDDEN MEANINGS WILL BE IGNORED.

2008-10-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE IS SEEKING FOR THAT ONE PERSON WHOM THEY CAN GET HEAD OVER HEELS FOR.

EVERYONE IS LONGING FOR A LOVE THAT IS SO TRUE.

THE ENTIRE CITY IS TALKING ABOUT WANTING THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE WHO WOULD GIVE YOU THEIR 24/7 UNDIVIDED AFFECTION AND CONCERN

MY APOLOGIES, FOR MAKING U FEEL MORE LIKE A JAILBIRD THAN MY BOYFREN

I FAILED, AS YOUR GIRLFRIEND.

I FAILED, MYSELF

IT DIDNT OCCUR TO ME THAT IT IS BEGINNING TO BECOME A CHORE FOR U TO ANSWER MY CALLS

I DIDNT REALISE THAT THE MANY TIMES I EXPRESSED CONCERN, WERE THE NUMEROUS TIMES YOU SAW ME AS AN IRRITANT.

LOVE COMES IN ALL FORMS.

BUT I GUESS, OUR LOVE CAME IN TWO EXTREMELY DIFFERENT FORMS.

AND SOMETIMES, PEOPLE TRY SO HARD THEY FAIL.

i seat under this black velvet sky tonight

and a kaleidoscope of our past merry images appeared before my very own eyes.

im just afraid, this fairytale would skip some pages, leaving them empty.

and baby, looking back at the things i have done

i was only trying to be someone

.your distinction girlfriend.

2008-10-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

i have been very much faithful to blogger

blogging almost everyday.

until er, say three days ago.

haha

but nonetheless, i still deserve a clap.

CLAP CLAP

haha

and, something just struck me real hard yesterday.

maybe i would share it with u.

since, i still have a long night ahead, PROGRAM-LESS.

read on, baby.

we always say things like.aye, i wana be go shopping with u!

or. does, baby girl i miss you, sound familiar?

OR OR. are u guilty of saying something like, i really really hope we can hang out and chill more often. i have got so much to tell u babe

THE IRONY BEHIND THIS ALL

even if u really HAD time,

u rather pamper ur nails like going for mani and pedi sessions

or u rather be a domestic girl staying indoors, eating chips, reading cleo, her world, elle, and even the boring eight days.

u will do anything else EXCEPT ringing your girlfriend's cell, or meeting ur girlfriend.

we like to say pleasant things.

beautiful words.

because, afterall. we know how this world works.

and so, for courtesy's sake. for god's sake. for friendship's sake.

we say words that can be in fact, considered as rubbish

HOW NICE.

shouldnt we be ashamed of ourselves?

YES, WE SHOULD.

okay. i think u already got my intended meaning.

so, perhaps i should stop :D

i shall make a very abrupt change of topic here.

baby has been boasting about this really cosy, nice, comfy, classy (plus every other positive word) jap restuarant at wheelock for days, which we went to try today, with the initial intention of pampering our tastebuds and satisfying our stomachs.

BUT, (as usual, there's always a flipside) haha. it turned out that it was another one of those fanciful restuarant that can only pamper, sad to say,ur eyes.

okay, the first dish being the oyster was alright. but subsequently, the dishes were. er, very much not as expected.

and baby boy, being his usual cute self, kept saying this after we left the restuarant.

wa. they cheat my money leh.

aye, they really cheat my money leh

stupid, they cheat my money.

they cheat my money, i rather eat my two dollars belgium waffle at lido!

i swear. he said it at least five times. haha.

vey poorly taken pictures of the oysters.or maybe the shell.

haha. its not v glam to be taking pictures of food. haha. so bear with the poor picture quality.

till the next time.

muacks muacks.

2008-09-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

im blogging instead of fantasizing that my love life would somehow or another end up like FATED TO LOVE U

BECAUSE

i ought to thank someone with a heart full of gratitude

THANK YOU, MR TAN

for being SUPERMAN.

realising my dreams, to a very large extend.

haha.

u just answered most of my prayers with a mere call

and gave me a baggage that signed off with HAPPINESS.

lols.

drama DRAMA!

effects of DRAMA OVERLOAD?

u become DRAMA MAMA!

lame -.- haha

okay, i am in a super positive mood now.

goodnightie!

it feels great to be blessed.

IT FEELS GREAT TO BE ME.

muacks

2008-09-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

. FATED TO LOVE YOU .

the best isnt about jewels and diamonds

and anything can become a classic if only u put your heart in.

THAT IS LOVE.

so wads with all the noob talk about LOVE

if u dont even genuinely understand the depths of this word.

save this word for your sweetheart okay?

she / he will be so glad you did.

2008-09-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

F-A-T-E-D T-O L-O-V-E Y-O-U

ok, please dont get me started.

please dont get my BIMBO mood turned ON.

AHHH.

five mins ok? just spare me five minutes.

okayy.. fated to love u is totally awesome.

the guy is totally charming

his charisma is totally irristable

i totally wish i had him as my boyfriend.

OOOPPS.

okay, ignore the boyfriend line. haha.

baby boy is charming too!

haha!

u totally need to repeatedly use the word TOTALLY to be a bimbo!

which is totally retarded!

but really, back to sanity language.

unless u have all the time in the world

u better not get started on this show.

BECAUSE U WILL GET HOOKED ON

i swear its worse than ecstasy

but than again,

its a drama

HELLO RACHEL

its a drama

there's a reason why it is called a DRAMA

instead of something like a reality film

because, everything's dramatised

especially the romance.

but baby boy, i would very much like to believe that im

FATED TO LOVE U

and just like the drama end up happily ever after with you.

even if,

the worst nightmares come true.

and you leave me,

i would still choose to never forget u.

i would still hold on to all the history we shared.

and continue singing our love lullabye, alone.

that is my promise to you.

2008-09-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

ikea meatball anyone?
haha. :D

if u have been reading, you will know life has not been very kind to me lately.
whatever it is, i believe that the one above planned for all this.
the good and the bad.
everything happens for a reason.
and so, i have no intentions of blaming anyone for all the shit.

now, here's for every single soul out there.
NOBODY FORCED U TO VISIT MY BLOG
U CAME OUT OF YOUR OWN WILL
even as u are reading this,
YOU READ OUT OF UR OWN WILL

to put it simply
dont be retarded.
u hate me.
den get lost.
i dont need u here.
THE MORE I DO NOT NEED U TO LEAVE TRACES OF UR PRESENCE BEHIND AFTER UR DEPARTURE.
ITS DISGUSTING.

thank u.
now pose this question to yourself
you hate me?
if yes.
scram
if no.
i love u too! :D

ANW. HAPPY SEVENTH MONTH MY BABY BOY.
CONGRATULATIONS FOR BEING MY FIRST BABY WHO HAS OFFICIALLY BROKEN THE SIX MONTH CURSE!
haha.
all the times spent with u were times spent in utter bliss
and iloveu so much more than i can say.
THE SMILE ON YOUR FACE LETS ME KNOW THAT YOU NEED ME
THERE'S A TRUTH IN YOUR EYES SAYING YOU'LL NEVER LEAVE ME
A TOUCH OF YOUR HAND SAYS YOU'LL CATCH ME WHENEVER I FALL
NOW YOU SAY IT BEST
WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL.
yes baby.
i dont need you to say all the love words
your presence alone already affirms this love.

on that sweet feburary day
i promised to never leave you or go away
to never hurt you
and to never say no to you
always and forever, was the promise we made
you are the reason for the smiles i make.
if loving you is wrong
then baby, i dont care to be right
you are the only person that makes my heart beat a race
i love u baby
and at the end, i wan u to noe.
i am never letting you go
we'll grow old.

RACHEL SAYS; ERIC I LOVE YOU.

2008-09-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

ANOTHER RACHEL

HERE'S FOR U

SINCE YOU JUST LOVE ME SO MUCH THAT U CANT GET OFF MY BACK

BUT U NEED NOT DO THIS, TO GET MY ATTENTION

DONT BE SILLY BABY GIRL

U HATE ME SO MUCH

TAKE A KNIFE AND STAB ME IN THE HEART.

COME ON. I AM WAITING

WHAT? I CANT HEAR U?

OH OKAY OKAY

I HEARD THAT.

U SAID U ARE A CHICKEN

BUT ANYWAY, U LOVE THE LIMELIGHT SO MUCH

I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU

I M NOT LIKE YOU

SMART ENOUGH TO GET INTO A JC.

YES, JC.

LIKE WOW WOW WEE WOW WOW

IM IMPRESSED

HURR HUR HUR

JC GIRL U TAKE LIT RITE?

CHECK OUT THE WORD CALLED. SACARSM

WHY WONT U SHOW UR FACE?

I MEAN I WOULD LOVE TO SEE HOW GORGEOUS U ARE AS A LADY THEN LET ME REFLECT AND THINK UPON HOW FUGLY I LOOK AS I STARE INTO THE MIRROR TONIGHT.

U WANA KILL ME

THEN DO IT ENTIRELY

I MEAN, I CERTAINLY DO NOT LOOK UP TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU.

OKAY, DEN AGAIN.

I DONT EVEN THINK U HAVE ANY SELF RESPECT

GOING AROUND THINKING ITS A JOKE TO BE CURSED AND SWEARED AT.

HOW FUNNY

I SUGGEST U STAY AWAY FROM ME.

BUT OF COURSE, OF COURSE

I UNDERSTAND IF GOD WAS A LITTLE BIASED AND SPENT A LITTLE LESSER TIME ON YOU

OH. YARH. THAT MUST BE IT.

THAT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING

BEFORE I BECOME THE WORST OF ME AND DECIDE YOU AS MY ARCH ENEMY

GET OUT OF MY ZONE.

RACHEL, WE SHARE THE SAME NAME

BUT, I THINK THATS ABOUT IT.

SHEESH.

ARENT U HONOURED PRETTY.

A WHOLE ENTRY JUST FOR YOU.

HMM HMM HMM

YEPS.

OH AND BEFORE I END THIS,

I WOULD LOVE TO GIVE U SOME FRIENDLY ADVICE

MAYBE U WANA TOP UP THE BOTTLES OF LISTERINE AT HOME?

BECAUSE, I AM NOT SURE WHY BUT EVERYTIME U SHOW UP

THERE'S THIS PUNGENT SMELL THAT PERSISTENTLY FOLLOWS.

IM SO SORRY I DIDN MEAN TO TELL THE REST U HAD BAD BREATH.

OOOPS.

OH AND YES BABY GIRL

I STRONGLY SUGGEST U VISIT THE PHYSCIATRIST SOON

AS I HAVE A HUNCH THAT YOU HAVE STEPPED INTO A LIFE THAT IS VERY UNFORTUNATELY CHARACTERISED BY HORMONAL IMBALANCE AND NAIVE ARROGANCE.

I LOVE U, RACHEL. I MEAN U WELL

GET THOSE LISTERINE

UR BOYFRIEND(IF U HAVE ANY) WILL BE GLAD U HAVE

AND

VISIT THE DOCS OK!

I CAN ALWAYS GIVE U SOME RELIABLE NUMBERS ALRIGHT?

I AM SURE MY FRENS WOULDN MIND HELPING A LITTLE KID LIKE YOU TOO

2008-09-15T09:19:00.000-07:00

HELLLOO.

please pardon me for the rubbish entries that have been coming in trucks lately

too many things happened, in too short a time

I CANT UNDO HISTORY.

SO I GUESS I WILL JUST TAKE THINGS IN STRIDE

i mean, whoever told u life was perfect is an idiot.

because. i can prove that wrong, anytime

yes. having said that. i should stop brooding over certain issues that i should have foreseen long ago.

naggy naggy naggy!

WILL SOME KIND SOUL SAVE ME BEFORE I BECOME OLD GRANDMA RACHEL??!

i am sure you have heard enough naggings

and i am even more certain, it will help a great deal if i could stop nagging like nobody's business

OK, I SHALL STOP NAGGING

AND BEGIN

WHINING

haha!

just kidding

-.-

not funny!

and when i thought i saw something that seemed so much like a rainbow

i felt that drizzle on my face, that felt so much like tears

the one and only survival tool that you need to master this lifetime is the ability to fabricate beautiful lies.

EMO RIGHT?

OKAY. BABY I HEARD YOU : NO EMO POST! (:

alright! i shall not ruin such a beautiful night with reality checks

afterall, we all love dreaming.

at least for me. :D

DONT U ENVY HIM?

MR GINGERBREAD MAN

ALWAYS ALL SMILES.

2008-09-14T22:23:00.000-07:00

URGH
GIVE ME A BREAK

im only sixteen,
have yet turned seventeen
what do you want

08's birthday wish : happiness.
YOU GOT ME?
I SAID.
H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S

2008-09-14T06:42:00.000-07:00

CLOSE YOUR EYES.
as you shut your mind from the outside world
for that one minute
and say this prayer with me, silently

LORD TONIGHT I AM HERE AGAIN, BEFORE YOU
PLEASE BLESS THAT THE RESULTS THAT WILL BE OUT LATER WILL BE FAVORABLE
PLEASE BLESS THAT I WILL NOT FAIL A SINGLE MODULE.
IN JESUS NAME, I PRAY.

AMEN.

2008-09-14T02:01:00.000-07:00

HI ALL SWEETHEARTS!!!
IM FINE LARHHHH
haha :D i will be such a disappointment if i am still all frowns and grouchy with so many lovelies around me rite!

(: yes darlings thank you for those lovely messages.sugar coated tags. awesome calls
how can i not feel loved

i know there's one question running through all of your heads.
so, still together?
haha.
HUR HUR HUR
make a guess
**
**
now u scored if you guessed positive!
i am, still, very UNFORTUNATELY.
opps.
i mean fortunately (: ATTACHED to mr. cheong.
baby said, NO MORE EMO ENTRIES :D
that explains all those smiley faces, which to a certain extend is beginning to make this entry look retarded

WHEN DO U SEE THE RAINBOW? AFTER THE RAIN! thats very random
but, yarh, i hope you got me. -.- haha!

okay, lets get down to business. I MEAN REAL BUSINESS now you see

i am giving u beautiful ladies, and brilliant boyfriends some solid information

TELL ME HOW CAN U COMPLETE A HEAD-TURNING LOOK WITHOUT A PAIR (no, make it tons of pairs) OF STUNNING EARRINGS?
the answer : impossible.
so to all beautiful ladies.
thinking that those ten, twenty pairs of earrings on ur dressing table is enough? maybe you want to think again! (:

and to those lovely boyfriends who have ran out of ideas of how to pamper your sweetheart

DID U FORGET THE SMALL YET SO VERY SIGNIFICANT EARRING? (:

so what are u waiting for. IT WOULDNT KILL TO JUST TAKE A PEEP. and for all YOU know, you will find something you will need to match with that burberry dress hanging in your closet !

http://www.her-accessories.blogspot.com

you'll be the first few birds stepping foot on this newly founded blogshop okay! be honoured :D
NOW WHY ARE U STILL HERE??!
QUICK GET UR ASS MOVING ON TO HER-ACCESSORIES NOW!
loves (:

2008-09-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

INDEED, HOW MANY BEST GIRLFRIENDS AND BOYFRIENDS DO I HAVE?
SO MANY
DESPITE ALWAYS GIVING ALL OF YOU COLD SHOULDERS
YOU ARE STILL THERE

WHEN THE SKY TURNS DARK
AND IT SEEMS LIKE IT IS ABOUT TO RAIN
IT IS ALWAYS THOSE FAMILIAR FACES THAT COMES RUNNING TO ME WITH AN UMBRELLA
AFRAID I WILL BE DRENCHED AND CHILLED
BY THE COLD REALITIES OF THIS WORLD

WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE SUCH FABULOUS FRIENDS.
NOTHING.

NOW I SEE FOR MYSELF
WHAT REALLY ARE THE GIFTS OF HEAVEN

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY VERY HEART
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS STANDING UP FOR ME.
klara, julitta, sharon
although i know that there are still a couple more names that should be named if i want to talk about life when we were still 16,
but yarh.
it was you angels who were there for me
how silly.
recalling the past
cursing our juniors
just because, they stole my boyfriend
and then again the other time we confronted A
because he made me cry
that was seriously an act of er, sad to say ah lian-ness
haha
u beautifuls lost ur grace, poise, and sanity
just because u knew i was upset

tho we have all gone on seperate ways.
all i have got to say is that
the times we mugged together in the hall
the times i exchanged letters with you, dear sharon
the times we joked and had heart to heart talks during english class, dear klara
the times you would always steal my wallet and do random stuff with it, dear julitta
and tho the rest will not be reading it.
here's for them
the times you called me your empress, dear janine
the times we mugged our asses out in macdonals thru the night, dear weiting
and the time u always taught me sickening Amaths so patiently, dear kimberley
(tho many a times i have to admit i just pretended i understood because i didnt want to be such a nuisance) haha
thank you.
i may not say this often
but you girls really rocked my world.

give me a choice, between life at 16 and any other phase of life
and you know my answer
i can give up any other thing
for you people
as long as the seven of us will seat together on one table muching on our noodles with extra nuggets, and extra wanton and extra seaweed chicken (for klara)
haha.

god. i really miss you people.

and jie jie
haha. i noe u hate me to call u that
i swear i was awestruck when i saw u tagged with that name
you are one awesome lady who never forgets me
we may lose contact for donkey years but u will still check on me occasionally to know that i am still doing fine
u love pampering me to all those immensely brilliant lunch sessions
u were the one who taught me what life really meant
you tried so hard
wanting to expose me to reality
brought me to MOS
taught me how to dress
threw fashion magzines at me
showed me exactly where to get the best buys
even before u left for ny
u had to tell me so much

u never said this before,
but i know very well
you really love me
as much as i love u

jaramiah
thank you
towards you
is a heart filled with gratitude
i will never forget how u painstakingly planned for my birthday last year
how u will fly down just to bring me to supper
how u will always crack lame jokes to brighten up my day when im down
how u always go the extra mile just for me.

thank you

AND TO ALL THE OTHER PP WHO TAGGED
TO ALL THE OTHER PP WHO CARES
really thank you.

cliche but true,
i wouldnt be who i am today
without u wonderful people.

i will reply tags soon
sorry
and thankyou

2008-09-11T02:50:00.000-07:00

where did we visit on our first anniversary
or how did we spend our second
and you ask did i love u more on our third
how about our fourth
or the fifth
and our honeymoon on our sixth

fairytales
what are they

now think again
have u witnessed a realised fairytale before
or are fairytales and happy endings
mere illusions
are they just our hopes
and the answer to our prayers
they say
DREAMS WILL COME TRUE IF YOU PRAY HARD ENOUGH
what if i told you i prayed every night

now, i see.
even my bedroom walls are mocking me

were you asking me what are the most splendid moments spent with you?
are they the times you treated me to those fancy dinners?
or the times u pampered me with my camera?

no.
they are the times when i raise my eyes, and see you there
they are the times u would drive down even in the late night just to see me, simply because as u would always claim in that cute voice of yours, you miss me
they were the times you never fail to always remember all our anniversaries
they were the times u sat down and talked to me while putting my hand tightly in yours

they were the times i knew,
i was your one and only.

now you ask me.
do i still love you
unfortunately, yes
because even from the very beginning
this love came in its purest form

i even wish i could stop these tears from flowing
because, i dont want to hurt you

you could do a gazillion things
but i swear upon god
i would never do a single act that i know will hurt u
because
if you still do not know by now
baby boy,
you are so much more important than myself

i could give you all my favourites
i could let you have the say in everything
i could be the most subservant lady around
i could give you the best in everything

anything's fine
as long as i know you are happy
as long as i never see you cry

now finally,
you ask
so what else am i still willing to do for you after this all
and my answer's still unchanged

EVERYTHING.

2008-09-10T10:32:00.000-07:00

when it comes to the club scene, u know it best.
tonight.
we witness it with our own eyes
how u never fail to make an entrance
how u always match those fabulous zara tops with fcuk berms and get the most awesome look
oh and how can i forget that lollipop smelling gucci scent
wednesday night.
its two am.
you promised to be back
but who cares.
the night's still young
the company's great
as u glanced across that room
ONE TWO THREE
eye candies everywhere
and u are still there
long legged fillies
with a skirt, only a little more than a belt
the dj is playing ur favourite
and u hit those dance floors again.
this time clinging to another chic
you love her curves
you are smitten with her looks
where's ur girlfriend
you dont care
when alcohol takes over
everyone is innocent
you are guilt free
its as if i gave u the green light to take another lady into ur arms tonight
get rid of all this shit
tonight, is history repeating?

T-R-U-S-T

and do u know that
the reality of this world is either untold or mistold

2008-09-09T09:32:00.000-07:00

PS.HOW WOULD U LIKE IT. IF I WENT
'CAN U NOT COMPARE MY XXX WITH HIM?'
U SAID IT AND TOOK IT AS A JOKE
I HEARD IT, AND HONESTLY
IT MEANT SO MUCH MORE THAN A MERE JOKE
WHAT IT SOUNDED LIKE WERE AWFULLY HEARTBREAKING WORDS
STINGING TO THE EARS.

but at the end of it all.

i just wana say
baby boy you are still the one i l-o-v-e

2008-09-08T08:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(:
lunched at orchard hotel. but i very idiotically left my camera in baby's car and thus. no pictures to boast of that splendid lunch.

LUNCH WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF SOME PEOPLE COULD BE A LITTLE MORE MINDFUL OF THEIR WORDS.

OOPS. did i just say something about watching ur words?
yes, i did.
:D

now i know ur eyes are longing for something more
okay, i will give it to u.
now watch the space below.

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have a great night.
lovelove

2008-09-05T21:47:00.000-07:00

2008-09-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO U
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO U
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR BIG TALL GIGANTIC LOOKING SON
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!!!!!!
AHHAHA.
imagine having a son older then urself. hmm
its disastrous, but heavenly (:

i love u, klara. :D
THIS ENTIRE POST IS FOR U. HAHA.